2/30: Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears...

Continuing on this literary journey, I am now going to share 3 legitimate fears I have and explain how they became fears, #2/30 on THE LIST. THE LIST is "30 Things my Kids Should Know About Me", my motivation and inspiration for starting this blog, which is sort of like a memoir for me. If you have started this project on your own blog, please share a link in the comments section!

So without further a due... 

3 Legit Fears I have...

and how they became fears:

1. Spending large amounts of money... I have a complex that I am slowly getting over. I am afraid to spend money! My fear stems from the fact that I am worried that I will spend money on something and then need money for something else that is more important. For example, I would rather save my savings than get to a "goal" and spend it on a nice vacation or something to treat myself... or I might see a very nice pair of shoes or jacket, but I won't buy it because I will be afraid that I might get an unexpected bill or something important will break and I have to replace it (*cough* cell phone... I have broken so many cell phones that the cell phone insurance company dropped my policy, haha). 

How did that become a fear? I think it was when we shifted from 2 incomes to 1, so I could stay home with the kiddos... all of the sudden no more online shopping or buying on a whim... but with that said, I will just add that it is more than worth it. I would rather stay home with my babies 24/7 and be here for them all the time than to make a lot of money and have lots of material things... I have too much stuff, as it is.

2. Falling asleep after my hubby... Typically, me and the hubby will watch our shows at night, in bed, and I will fall asleep. If he falls asleep before me (which is very rare) then I just can't fall asleep. I am nervous and get worried that no one is "on guard", LOL. I have even been known to bring the kids into our bed and lock the bedroom door to settle my nerves enough to fall asleep. I know, that's horrible... but it just puts me at ease to have everyone in the same room, with the door locked. Hubby always says "you locked the door?", haha. 

How did that become a fear? Too many true crime mysteries, I guess... but I love my true crime mysteries.

3. Haunted Houses... When I was a teenager I went to Madame Tussaud's in the Bay Area, with my family, and there was a pretty graphic horror scene with all of the gore that you could imagine. I can handle that fine... here is where the "How did that become a fear?" comes in... when we were in Vegas, the hubby and I thought it would be fun to see Madame Tussaud's Vegas. Well, it was fun (and much better than the Madame Tussaud's in the Bay Area), until we got to the part that said "Haunted House". I figured that it was probably the same exhibit from the bay area, with all the gory bodies and such, so I decided to look and see... well, I never should have assumed, because it was the WORST haunted house I have ever been to. We walk in and it is pretty much pitch black, dark... but there are creepy people following you and getting all up in your space, growling and stuff. I was screaming for them to stop, "Okay! Okay! Stop it!!" but they did not lay off and we just rushed through to get out. I wish I had turned around and beat the hell out of that idiot, it still makes me mad when I think about it. Nothing about this was "haunted", just a dark pathway and an idiot that has no respect for people's personal space. I haven't been in a haunted house since then, and even declined going to Fright Fest at Six Flags because I wasn't sure I could handle it. I also don't like when people jump out and scare me... everyone knows it. Read "Starting out on our own" to hear about how my hubby scared the daylights out of me for the first time.